I have a bit of a confession to make: I am addicted to thinking I need everything. I need that new shirt from Anthropologie. I need new shoes because my current favorite are falling apart. I need to buy decorations for our home office. I need frames for the art I plan to put up in the guest room. I need, need, need, NEED.
In the past few weeks... months... years... I have fallen into the trap of labeling everything as a need and have become an advertiser's dream. I see it and automatically think I need it, and then become a tiny bit depressed when I can't buy it (or jealous of those who can buy what I 'need').
Then, the other day I had an epiphany! There is a huge difference between needs and wants! I need things that are vital to life. You know - food, water, shelter. I want that shirt from Anthropologie, new shoes, and decorations for my home, but don't really need them. I have plenty, and considering the size of my current pay check (nada), it is good I am not getting those things.
So, for Lent, or this current Easter season, I have chosen to focus on being grateful that I have all I need, and to focus on labeling all the extras as wants, not needs. I realize that changing the way I think will be hard and most likely take longer than days leading up to Easter. However, I feel I need to work on being content with what I currently have, with the blessings I have been given at this moment.
1. What did you do in 2010 that you'd never done before?
Let's see... I quit my first full time job, started working on my master's, and began substituting.
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Last year my goal was to draw closer to God, and truthfully I didn't do very well with that goal. So, I plan to work on that again, as well as get into shape. I am still the same size, but I feel so much more fatty than I used to be. Basically, my body has been bothering me lately, and I know I can fix that.
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
Not this year. Several of my friends are having babies this year, though. Part of me is slightly jealous, and the other part of me is glad it is not me!
4. Did anyone close to you die?
Not this year. Thank goodness!
5. What countries did you visit?
Barrett and I stayed in Texas this entire year. We probably won't be going out of country until he finishes up medical school and his residency.
6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
My teacher's certification. I am pretty sure I will have it by the end of 2012, though I will still need to finish up my Masters.
7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
December 25, 2011 - My parents came home from their two week trip to Italy on Christmas Day, and I was so glad to finally be able to talk to them. Overseas calling rates were very expensive, so I was pretty much cut off from them for those two weeks, and I'll admit it was hard. I missed hearing from them. Even a text would have been nice!
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
One year of a marriage!
9. What was your biggest failure?
Not being able to stay healthy. I substituted alot and became sick ALOT.
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
Oh yes. Laryngitis was probably the worst. I hated not being able to talk.
11. What was the best thing you bought?
Money has been a little tight this year, so I can't think of anything big that I bought. However, I will say I'm very pleased with the Christmas gifts I gave this year. My mom absolutely loved the scarf I gave her and a good friend of mine loved the tea pot I gave her! Talk about gift giving win!
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
My brother, Pierce's. He has impressed me so much this year. This summer he worked for my dad's company and showed such maturity. He would go to bed at nine and wake up at five in order to get there in time. Furthermore, he has become really dedicated to his studies, playing less video games and keeping up with all of his assignments in college. I'm so proud of him... He is really growing up!
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
Some of the teacher's I have met while substituting. I understand they are busy and do not want to deal with a substitute asking questions, but I feel I do deserve to be treated decently. Also, what is up with teachers ignoring the substitutes in the teacher's lounge? I feel like I'm the outcast kid in high school sometimes.
14. Where did most of your money go?
General living expenses... and eating out. We really need to stop eating out so much. It is just so tempting sometimes!
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
Having the whole summer off with Barrett was so much fun! I loved hanging out with him, watching silly tv shows, and working on projects around the house. I absolutely love how our living room furniture turned out.
16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
Stereo Hearts by the Gym Class Heroes.
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? happier... I have loved married life.
ii. thinner or fatter? Still the same since, just fattier.
iii. richer or poorer? Poorer. Getting a masters is expensive.
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
I wish I had gone on more walks with Barrett. I really enjoy those times when we walk around the block and just talk.
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
I really wish I had spent less time surfing the internet. Sometimes I spend hours online, doing absolutely nothing.
20. How did you spend Christmas?
Christmas was spent with Barrett's family. We had a blast, relaxing and watching movies in theatre. We saw four movies this holiday season: Hugo, Tintin, Girl with a Dragon Tattoo, and Sherlock Holmes: Game of Shadows.
21. How did you spend New Years?
Barrett and I are spending New Years with my parents. We celebrated Christmas and are now enjoying lots of wine and sparkling cider.
22. Did you fall in love in 2010?
Yes. I have fallen more in love my husband as I have gotten to know him more.
23. How many one-night stands?
24. What was your favourite TV program?
Dr. Who. Barrett and I finally watched all of the reboot and are in love. Season 6 was AMAZING!
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
I really try not to hate anybody. There are people I disagree with, but I do not hate them.
26. What was the best book you read?
Picking one book is so hard to do! I really enjoyed Warbreaker by Brandon Sanderson, Blackveil by Kristin Britain, House on Durrow Street by Galen Beckett, and Dangerous to Know by Tasha Alexander.
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
I don't think I discovered a new band this year... I have been really bad at keeping up with new music.
28. What did you want and get?
Barrett got me an expensive and beautiful calaphon frying pan for Christmas, which I had been drooling over. I can't wait to cook with this baby!
29. What did you want and not get?
A new travel coffee mug. Our old ones, which were freebies from the Vet, fell apart. Luckily, travel mugs are pretty inexpensive. I bet I'll be able to pick one up with no problems.
30. What was your favourite film of this year?
The King's Speech was excellent! I definitely want to own it someday.
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
I turned 23 this past year, and celebrated with my family. It was a perfect birthday!
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
I think having a real job would have been nice. However, I know I will get there.
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2010?
Cardigans.... lots and lots of cardigans!
34. What kept you sane?
Barrett, my brother, and my fabulous parents. I don't know what I would do without them.
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
Ummm... David Tenant. Enough said.
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
Occupy Wall Street. I salute those who actually started the movement and know what it is about, and disdain those who have jumped on the bandwagon and acted like total idiots.
37. Who did you miss?
Friends from college. I miss having a fun group of girls to hang out with.
38. Who was the best new person you met?
Barrett's M1 (medical student, year 1) who he was matched with has the cutest wife. Stephanie is so much fun to be around, and I wish I had spent more time with her this year.
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010?
Creating is immensely satisfying. I am so proud of my coffee table and tv stand! It makes me feel like I can do anything.
40. Quote a song that sums up your year.
"Oh the only way to really know, is to really let it go..." Maybe by Ingrid Michaelson
1.) Starting on January 3rd, I will be moving in with my parents. Sort of. For student teaching, I was placed at my old high school, which is an hour and a half away from where I'm currently living. So, to save gas money and allow me to sleep in a bit more, I will be living with my parents during the week and coming home to Barrett on the weekends. It will be tough, but it's only for one semester.
2.) This Christmas I was spoiled rotten by my mother-in-law. She gave me several beautiful, expensive gifts, which I am so excited about. My current favorite (I can't seem to make up my mind) is this lovely area rug from Pier 1.
I wish I could find a larger picture of this rug on their website. However, this one will have to do, until I manage to take a picture of it in my living room. Let me tell you, it looks fancy.
3.) My computer is on the fritz. Right now, I'm typing this from Barrett's computer, while waiting for my Dad to tell me if it is fixable. Based on the problems I have been having, Dad thinks I might need a new motherboard. *Sigh*
4.) My parents are finally back from their 2 week trip to Europe! We're currently visiting them and catching up. They have so many fun stories about their trip and beautiful souvenirs to show off.
5.) I am obsessed with watching Barrett play The Elder Scrolls: Skyrim, the video game I bought him for Christmas. The graphics are so realistic and the storyline is really interesting!
Hope everyone had an amazing Christmas and is still getting to enjoy time with their families, like Barrett and I are!
Ten things I'm thinking of right now:
1. One day, I will be a kindergarten teacher. Substituting has taught me that kindergarten classes make me giddy with joy. I wake up looking forward to spending time with the kids! They make me laugh, they make me smile, and they make me go home exhausted in a good way. They have a joy for learning, a joy for life that is just contagious. They make me feel great about myself and shower me with affection. It always touches my heart when they draw me pictures or hug me at the end of the day. Goodness, I love kindergarten!
2. I will soon be repainting the oval, black framed mirror my mother-in-law gave me that is very similar to the one below. This picture has made me believe it should live life with a turquoise frame on the long wall in my living room.
3. I also think the comfy, but ugly, chair my sweet friends Jason and Courtney gave to Barrett and I needs a major makeover. Maybe something fun, like this? Or is it possibly too large for something so bold?
4. While I can't believe that it is November already, I'm already getting into the holiday spirit! I recently broke down and bought She & Him's fabulous new Christmas cd. I just cannot get enough of Zoe Deschanel's beautiful vocals! Honestly, if I could be anyone for a day, it would be her. She wears the cutest clothes, is beyond gorgeous, and has the most amazing voice. Oh, Zoe, you're my girl crush, for sure.
5. I've become slightly obsessed with online survey sights. Specifically, Swagbucks
. Between these two websites I have earned $55 in Amazon giftcards over a period of 3-4 months. With Swagbucks, I've been using their search over google's, taking the daily poll, doing surveys, and look for swagcodes*. So far I've been able to make $5-10 in Amazon cards a month. Mysurvey takes a little bit longer to earn stuff with, but it has still been worth my time. If you're interested in joining Swagbucks, please think about using the link I provided. It will give me a few points for you joining.
*Swagcodes are codes the website release daily that you can input for free points. I use this
website to help me find out about the codes.
6. I've been drooling over this
yarn, ever since my mom bought some to make a cowl for her trip to Europe. Yep, I said EUROPE! Over Christmas break, Mom and Dad are taking a two week trip to Italy. Unfortunately it is without kids :-(
Anyway, I'm stuck between loving the turquoise (called Lake Chelan Heather) and the Highland Green. I'm leaning toward the turquoise, though, as it has small lime green flecks in it that would match my lime green coat. The darker green would possibly clash and who would want that?
7. My good friend, Jenny, and I have a craft night planned in which we will make these lovely belts. I've already gathered all my supplies, and I'm super excited! Lately I've been feeling like I need more belts.
8. In case you did not know, I'm a freebie hoarder. I often frequent heyitsfree.net and freebies.about.com
. Everytime my parents stay over, my dad teases me about the free samples I stock the guest bathroom with. However, if I have to choose between buying full size bottles of body wash, shampoo, conditioner, etc. or pulling out sample sizes of things, you better believe I'm pulling out the samples! Of course, now my guest bathroom is running over with samples. My dad has started taking samples from the hotels he stays at on business trips and giving them to me.
9. I'm itching to recover all of our light switches and wall sockets with scrapbook paper. However, I kind of want to modge podge them on. Mostly because I like modge podge.
10. It's finally cooling down here, and it is lovely! This past weekend I unpacked winter clothes, added an extra quilt to the bed, and began dreaming of wearing all my sweaters! Oh, how I love Fall/Winter weather!
P.S. Please pray for my dear sweet friend Anna Ciufo (pronounced Shoe-foe). She was one of the five girls sitting in the back of the ACU bus that crashed. Of the five, one died, and the other four were hurt the worst of the 16 people on the bus. If you'd like to learn more about the bus crash and possibly have a few more names for your prayers, you can go here: http://blogs.acu.edu/iwanttohelp/